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been a bad boy
05:55 Dec 29 2009
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Seems I have been pushing away harder and harder. Guess I owe an explination/apology to some atleast those close to me. The anger and hate of my gramdpa dieing is coming to a full boil and the only way I find relief is lashing out in VERY harmful ways. I tend to isolate myself when I take on more pain then I can handle. I don't know how to cope other then push people away. In doing so its by my choice you aren't around so I don't have to mour the loss. Its been really hard lately and my heart knows better but my brain takes over and well we all know how that ends. To the 3 I hold near and dear seem to be taking the brunt of my shittiness and its not fair to the 3 of you. In fact its down right shitty of me. For that I am truely sorry. There's a ton more to go with it and they know about it and its just not for here. I'm not asking to be forgiven and forgot just understood.

COMMENTS

PandorasBx
06:59 Dec 29 2009

Sorry to hear about your Grandfather :(

GrieviousDemon
14:05 Dec 29 2009

It takes a lot to open up even this much. Its been a shitty year by far with everyone close to you passing and not being able to be there for them or to comfort the family. You know me man I am not gonna let you push me away. I know when to give you your space and not push the issue at hand. Your like family to me and I have told you that many times, and with that said I dont expect it to be peachy all the time but to look past the pain your feeling and try to be there for you when we can.

Now I have to apologize for not being around as often lately. Its been harder and harder to make it down with the ex not working us getting shit pay and barely hanging on like everyone else this yr. Times have been tough for everyone, but it doesnt compare to your loss this year by far. Your a brother and always will be no matter what, and we are truley here for you.

PhoenicianDream
18:10 Dec 30 2009

Everything that you're going through fucking sucks. I'm sorry honey.

We'll get through this.

Just like everything else.

:-*

PrettyWhenICry
19:17 Jan 03 2010

*hugs* I know we do not talk ... really at all but I've always loved to read your posts. I'm sorry for your loss. I can honestly say I understand how you are feeling. I've pushed a lot of people away since my father passed away last month and have not been the greatest person. I think the people you are closest with will understand your pain and understand that you are attempting to cope. They will not walk away from you and will continue to love you.

fucking snot nosed brats
15:27 Dec 28 2009
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I swear by the gods if another shitty ass kid bitches how they hate living at home under their parents rules I am going to become a cutter. It must be so bad kids with cell phones on the internet privlage after privlage. Well to all you little turd boiler just wait till you are on your own and have to flip the bills on your own. Most of you prolly won't even graduate which means you'll be lucky as hell to get a job that doesn't include flipping burgers or a wheel barrow full of trash. Good luck with that.

COMMENTS

xAXEWOMANx
15:46 Dec 28 2009

ooo bitch ;)

*hands you a beer*

Twilighty
16:08 Dec 28 2009

Amen, most kids today are horrible. I'm sure there are some that don't act like this but so far the majority I come across are like what you posted. Its sad really.

ladySnowStrixx
16:51 Dec 28 2009

HERE ! HERE! I agree With you there Kids Are Babied to much now a days , they expect you to give them anything they want like we owe them a living.

ebenezer
07:54 Sep 30 2010

Woah. I didn't even finish grade 10 and I'm doing fine on the job side of life. :P

the things I do
15:51 Dec 27 2009
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I'd like to clear the air on a something. My actions, they are mine and mine alone. No one can or will be able to explain them accept me. This list of people who can't explain what I do would not only include but place at the top of the list PD. So if you are looking for an explination for the reasons I do things ask me not her cause she isn't going to know any more then the next person.

COMMENTS

WildChild
18:06 Dec 27 2009

Reading journals offline chicken shits... What are you scared of?

PhoenicianDream
18:06 Dec 30 2009

I thought your asshole status was explination enough for anything you do.

*shrugs*

warning
19:02 Dec 26 2009
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Don't come to my profile rate me low and when I return the favor say that I am starting drama! If you don't like the rating talk to Cancer he's the one who set up the rating system not me.

COMMENTS

radu
22:11 Dec 26 2009

Making new friends I see.

WildChild
00:21 Dec 27 2009

You know me, always playing well with others.. Ok even I couldn't hold a straight face...

my Xmas gift to VR
15:49 Dec 25 2009
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Yes believe it I am gifting everyone today.... I have taken the day off from rating..

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PandorasBx
18:05 Dec 27 2009

Awwww, ain't you sweet ;)

17:40 Dec 22 2009
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bah fucking humbug.. don't come to me with your comercial falsehoods of cheer.

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Haiku
18:41 Dec 22 2009

Oh no everyone! It's the Scrooge!

WildChild
18:46 Dec 22 2009

scrooge ain't got shit on me

>?>?>?>
17:32 Dec 21 2009
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FTH

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Haiku
21:07 Dec 21 2009

?_?

long rough road...
18:13 Dec 19 2009
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I find myself drifting back to the past a lot lately. Missing those who aren't around anymore.. Digging the tunes and memories of WAY back..

COMMENTS

GrieviousDemon
14:14 Dec 29 2009

Our memories is all we have of the ones we loved who have passed, or who are no longer around for other reasons. Its those memories that keep them alive in spirit. I know my step father died at 32 after suffering for a year after being ran over on his hog. Ended up passing while watching the Raiders/ Denver game. So every year I have that memory while watching. And songs forget it.. I cant even hear freebird anymore without losing it. So I can relate some brother.